Feels peaceful....

Feels peaceful....

I guess it's been forever since I felt at peace...bad relationships that involves arguing, complaining, distrust, and just negative energy....especially in my last relationship...I lost my peace...

But now that I have moved on with someone else...She brings out the best in me...I finally feel peaceful.

I know every relationships go through arguments and blah, blah, blah but when it's limited and barely none...it's the greatest feeling in the world.

I feel at ease...

I feel nothing but positive vibes...I didn't think I would find it so fast with someone else...Because I haven't had this feeling since my last last ex, the one before my ex...So it feels good to enjoy it now.

I know that the feeling is mutual...

I can still work on me and better myself...I want to continue to grow...and learn more about me.
She is excited about her future as well...She's not just focus on me.

I have learned to keep doing things for myself...And not depend on anyone else...I found my independence...I'm not the type to look for love...And just date people to keep from being by myself. I see women doing all the time, posting gifts from loved ones when the person don't even love them or respect them. I feel bad for these women...because they don't know true love. They are so used to being with someone that they will even be with someone who treats them badly. They think gifts mean everything...but it really means NOTHING.

Respect, loyalty, honesty means EVERYTHING...if she's calling you a "bitch" then you don't mean shit to her. Period.

I still spend plenty of time by myself...I still have my own life.
I still spend time learning myself...I still have my own life.
I still spend time focusing on my goals...I still have my own life...

However, when she's in my life...I feel peaceful...She gives me that positive energy.

She's my gift from God.

All smiles...I deserve it.

All smiles...I deserve it.

 

 

Remember that crush that I had with a straight woman, well I lost interest because she did something that was very distasteful. That's one thing about Tauruses, once you turn us off...We are completely turned OFF lol...There's no way to gain our interest again.

 

However, I met someone and she is just like me...We share the same interest, the same music genres, like the same hobbies, have so much in common that it is crazy, lol.

 

I think this will be funny to see, because I have always wanted to date someone who was just like me.

 

And so far, she is.

 

I really believe that when you pray for someone, God delivers that person at his own time. He already knows our needs and wants. Sometimes we aren't ready to meet the right one, simply because we have not learned how to treat them. I have been all around the world and I haven't met the right one. Hopefully, she is but until then I am just going to enjoy the ride.

 

I had to tell my friend that we never knows who's the right one until they show up.

 

But I do believe that everyone has that soulmate..you may have missed that person by leaving thinking the grass is greener on the other side then having to realize that it's not...

 

Sometimes the grass is greener on your own side, but you didn't take the time to appreciate it...then you lose it...and then you jump from person to person trying to get that grass greener again, lol.

 

It never works...that's why I treat every girl perfect, because once it's over, they can never say I wasn't good to them...I'm a good as catch. I'm very respectable, dedicated, loyal, loving, and many more traits, lol...

 

All smiles and I deserve it.

Crushes

Sorry, I have missed pretty much the entire week but this week has been a little hectic, since school has started...I've been everywhere, literally lol.

So I'm thinking of a topic, not sure what to discuss...I'm at peace (which is always good). I am crushing on someone, a bit heavy.

So let's talk about crushes...

I haven't crushed in so long, lol...when I'm in a relationship, I usually don't feel for no one but my partner...and now that I am single, my interest has been peaked. I had someone tell me that they never thought my ex deserved me...It's funny how people tell you things once the relationship is over. She said that I was too good for my ex...It made me feel good though because I love when people see how good of a person that I am. No fronting or bashing but none of my exes can say that I cheated on them, entertained others, lied, hit or anything on them...I am a great partner, if I say so myself.

 

Well back to crushing, when I find someone attractive on the inside and outside, I am usually amazed. I tend to crush far from behind without telling them for awhile...Simply because people put on their perfect face and personality so I need time to observe just to make sure she is who she represent herself.

 

Once I am sure that she is who she say she is...I have no problem telling her exactly how I feel.

 

Sometimes, I am very direct...Like very DIRECT, lol...I speak how I feel regardless of the situation. I don't like miscommunication, so I have to be very clear on my intentions upfront.

 

I have a weakness for women who are natural, thick, looks like the Jill Scott type. I have been attractive to the complete opposites as well...but I love em thick and just sexy as hell.

 

It turns me on when a woman wears heels...It just something about it that can't be explained...I love a sexy as woman, lol.

 

I love a woman who is mature, humble, God fearing, nice to the core and a simple loving person.

 

I dislike women who are stuck up and think they are better than the next...it turns me off.

 

But when I meet a woman like that, I tend to go slow because I'm very interested in getting to know her as a person first...sometimes, I move extra slow when I know she can eventually hurt me.

 

But when I have a crush, I usually go for it...as long as she is single. I'm not into married women or women in relationships...It's not my thing.

When a woman has been broken...

When a woman has been broken....

 

I have noticed that a lot of heterosexual women are broken and bitter in regards to men and new love...Noticed I said "heterosexual" "straight" women are broken...I don't really see this too much in the lesbian community...I think I know why.

 

Let's be honest, some men simply dog these women out. Get them pregnant when they have no intentions on becoming their husbands. Cheat on them with other women. Disrespect them to the core. Just treat them like crap after they get what they want from them. Use them and abuse them. I mean the list goes on.

 

Lesbians treat women so much better...Period.

Yes, we may treat our women just as some men but we love hard. We fall in love fast with one another. The relationship may not work, but our women don't leave the relationship bitter and broken. They just move on to another woman...Sad but true.

 

Lesbians move fast, fall out of love fast, fall in love fast...We all know this. Especially younger lesbians.

 

The older I get the more I look for consistency. I don't want to continue the cycle, I am ready to fall in love with the same person over and over again for a lifetime...However, there are some older lesbians that move fast just as much as younger lesbians, because they haven't  matured yet.

 

Trust me, I know some lesbians that are 35 and older still jumping from one person to another person...these are the ones to look out for..they aren't mentally mature and ready for a lifetime.

 

However, I must say lesbians love HARD...We treat our women better than most men. We don't want just sex, because in the first few months we are already saying "I love you."

 

When a woman has been broken, you have to take your time with her and get to know her. You have to show her that you are different from any man that she may have dealt with. You have to get to know her mind, body and soul...

 

But trust me, that mess is hard and you will get frustrated because she will push you away...She will treat you like she doesn't care but only because she is fearful of what could happen if she falls in love with you.

 

Some women become bitter and make comments such as I don't need love and etc...but you can get pass that if you just stay consistent...

 

I guess this blog post is only for lesbians interested in a straight woman...My next post will talk about our "Passion" for straight women...Not all lesbians but some of us love women in general rather they are straight, bi or lesbian.

 

Such as me....I love all women and I can't help who I fall for.



Who are you????

 
I remember back with my ex ex (an ex from years ago), we were at a friend's house for the New Year and someone asked me, "Who are you?" I answered and said my name and she said, "Yeah, but who are you?" I felt personally attacked and became defensive....
 
Years later, it all makes sense...lol
 
I have to figure who am I...sometimes I'm sure...and sometimes I'm not sure.
 
I feel that I am not the same person as I was last week, last month, last year and etc. I feel that I am evolving more and more each day...
 
But the core of me stays the same...
 

Sometimes, you have to stop and ask yourself, "Who am I?"

 
Now I noticed my personality more, I noticed my hobbies more, I noticed what I  look for in a partner more, I noticed what I look for in life and how I want to live my life.
 
I noticed what's more important to me...
 
I noticed who is more important to me...
 
I noticed that my love for God has become deeper...
 
I noticed that I can always count on God...
 
I noticed that I don't really have many true friends...
 
I noticed that some of my family members suck...
 
I noticed that my mom is proud of me...
 
I noticed that I am a little distant with certain people...
 
I noticed that I love and crave women...
 
I noticed that I am not complete...

 

I hope that you do the same thing as I and take some time out to think about who you really are...so when someone new comes into your life you can tell them but most importantly you will know who you are....

 
Love,
Ky

Spoil Yourself

 

 

Do you spoil yourself?

 

 

 

I have a habit...and it's called shopping, lol. I love shopping, online shopping, any type of shopping where you can buy something.

 

Sometimes when I get bored, I go on Ebay or Amazon and start looking for stuff to buy, lol...

 

 

 

Shopping is my addiction.

 

 

 

But it feels good to be able to spoil yourself!

 

Why wait on someone else to buy you something when you can buy it yourself?!?

 

 

I love spending money on me...

 

 

 

I'm not stuck on materal stuff and I don't praise material stuff

 

I really believe that when you work so hard you should buy you something when you get paid...

 

Don't just work to pay bills, life is too short...enjoy it and live it up...

 

Don't go spend your rent money or car payment, but take a little bit money and buy yourself an outfit or new phone case, hell anything that will make you smile...

 

WHY?

 

It's simple...because you deserve it!

Extremely Blessed

 

Have you ever been still and just allowed God to do his work?

 

I have been still for awhile and God showed up and turned out better than I expected it. Everything is falling into place. I feel like a new born.

 

I prayed for God to be the driver in my life because I know he has my back and knows what's best for me.

 

At first, I was a little hurt seeing my ex moved on to this person and that person but then I realized she was never meant for me. I had to take some time to heal. I had to focus my energy on just me. I had to fall back in love with me. Thank God, I have great friends and family that loves me and never left my side through the storm.

 

I thank God for everything because he used her moving on as a way to show me that I deserve better and he had it all planned out.

 

I didn't even realized how blessed I was until I was quiet.

 

I let go of everything and I'm no longer sad, hurt, or disappointed...

 

I learned a lot of things...but most importantly, I learned that I am extremely blessed....

 

I pray that God sends me the right person at the right time when it's time...

I pray that God continues to bless me financially...

I pray that God continues to bless my body (healthy within and outside)

I pray that God blesses me with so much more love for everyone...

I pray for my family, friends and great coworkers...

 

I love my life...but I had to fall back in love with myself...And God and time were my bestfriend.

 

So when you get down, take time to pray and allow God to be the driver of your life and things will start to fall back in place.

 

I love you and thanks for reading!

 

Learn to love more and more...Everyone needs it.