Open Yourself

Learning to Open Yourself Completely...

Sometimes when we meet new people...we give them a preview of us.

We share a little of this..a little of that...

We allow them to witness our good sides....

However, we keep so much of ourselves away from them...We don't share everything with them...

Some people believe you shouldn't allow others access to ALL of YOU...

I've been thinking, how can you fall in love with someone if you haven't even opened yourself completely to them???

How can someone fall in love with you when you haven't giving them ALL of You????

It's impossible....Stop being ashamed of your past...and who you are.

Embrace your flaws....

You want a person to love all of you...so open yourself up to them...let them in...share your secerts..share your past.

Invite them in...

It's been a long time since I have invited someone into my life completely...allowing her to know ALL of me...

I must admit I have stopped letting people in because of fear...fear that I will be judged and looked at differently...

But honestly, if they do look at me different...do I really want them in my life???

Never give up on love or you....try something different next go around and open yourself completely.

Naked Life

Naked LIFE

 

You know how you get home from work, kick off your shoes, release your bra strap and take off your clothes...that feeling....yeah, that feeling...

 

Feels so good...Lol.

 

Makes you wanna take a hot shower and relax!

 

It's amazing how we take care of outer body parts and neglect the inner body parts...

 

It feels good to clean your outer body....but it should be good to clean your inner body as well.

 

Sometimes you have to clean your inner body...remove some things...remove some people...remove criticism...remove failed relationships...remove negative energy....remove fake people...remove negative thinking...remove other's perception...remove it all.

 

Shower it ALL OFF...

 

Use soap, body wash, or etc to get the job done...and if you need to take a longer shower then do it!

 

You choose what to let go of and what to keep in your life...

 

Choose to be happy...choose to be free...choose to love...choose to focus on your goals..

 

Having a naked life means letting go and starting over from scratch...who cares if you have to shower every day...I mean you shower every day and sometimes more than once a day to clean your outer body...

 

Never give up, always try again...Life is good when you realize you have another day to get it right!  



Expectations...

I was reading an article this morning and found this statement....

Never expect anything.
Don’t expect your partner to read your mind, or to bring you breakfast in bed, or to offer to wash the dishes. It’s not going to happen. You can’t expect anything from anyone – you have to make it known. Communicate. Make sure your partner knows what you expect from the relationship, as well as your opinions on a wide variety of issues. This will help them act considerate towards you, but still – don’t expect anything!

I admit, I live by expectations...I always feel that people should do what is expected of them without asking...You know I expect people to have manners, respect, loyalty, honesty and the list goes on and on...
But my expectations ALWAYS FAIL...People aren't the same anymore...People are self-centered and selfish as hell. 
Some people don't know how to love anymore...or they show it inappropriate ways like arguing, fighting, and other unhealthy ways...that's not love people! 

Love should feel good and be consistent...Love should be the extra bonus...Love should be felt when the words are not said...Love should make you feel so good that the love in return makes you weak....Love should be everlasting...Love should make you smile when you are feeling down...Love should make you wanna be a better person...Love should make you wanna fulfill your partner's expectations...

However, expectations leads to disappointments...

I'm just now learning now to expect anything from anyone but God himself. 

In this process...It will be hard because I have always believed that people should treat you how you treat them...if you are nice, caring and considerate then it should be shown back...But it's Monday and I'm going to try it...I'm going to force my mind to not expect anything from anyone. 

I will keep you all updated...<3 

Small Things...

Small Things....

Sometimes in life, we overact and worry about things that really don't even matter...We have to learn how to only be concerned with our behavior and not worry about other people behaviors.

Sometimes we forget to focus on small things...things that matter the most. Like for me, I like to read and I just realized that I haven't read a new book in a month or so...so guess what, I am going to start back reading...it's the small thing that some people may not get but reading for me is like therapy...it takes my mind off reality and life that I live...it helps me, literally.

So my advice to all my readers is to never stop doing things that you enjoy in life...don't let life stop you from enjoying the small things...

I'm at the point of rebuilding...so sorry that I haven't wrote a blog in awhile...but when you are rebuilding it makes you put your life in perspective...You have to go back and update your life goals and figure out new ways to meet those goals and most importantly be patient with the process...

I'm rebuilding and allowing myself to let go of people that no longer give me what I need...In life, you have to let negative people go because you can't rebuild with them around...You have to do a clean up and not feel bad for your choices....Some people don't deserve to be around you and aren't any good for you...You want to be around people who inspire you and push you to do better. People who truly love you for you..not for who they want you to be...People who know you inside and out. People who look at you as a star even when you don't feel like it. So let those negative people go, block them out of your life. THEY DON'T DESERVE YOU...remember that. :)

I admit I have made so many wrong choices in life, but staying focus in grad school is one of the best decisions that I have made...I'm not allowing anyone to stop me from accomplishing this goal. People come and people go, but your goals last forever...I'm doing this for me. I want this more than anything, just to say I did it..I worked full-time, did an internship, held events, volunteered, and still graduated on the top of the list.

But you must take care of yourself first...so going back to the beginning...you have to take time to do things you enjoy in life no matter how small...reading, traveling, and writing are some of the things that I enjoy...so I must continue to fit it in my schedule...

Small things matter the most...Thanks for reading.

A New Role...

I'm someone's older sister.....

I have always been the only child, but now I am a big sister....whoop whoop, thanks to my dad lol

My entire perspective has changed...I have to set good examples and become a better person.

I love talking to my younger sister because I feel like I can tell her EVERYTHING without being judged.

I have talked to her about my current girlfriend and exes and she never once judged me...

I know that she loves me, not because she tells me but because she shows it...

I am looking forward to our sisterhood...She wants nieces and nephews and I do too, lol...

I can't wait to be called auntie....

My actions affect her....my future affects her...my life affects her...and I am conscious of it.

God makes no mistakes so I know he gave her to me for a reason....to love.

I never thought being someone's big sister would make me so happy, but it does...

From the day she entered my life, she has made me smile more and more....

We even look a like, I guess my dad's DNA is mad strong, lol.

The blog is to remind you that your decisions in life not only affects you, but it affects people in your life as well. So be careful...You wouldn't want to hurt someone that you love.

Pushes Me Harder

So let's start...I went against ALL fear and entered a new relationship!

 

Lol, my life is a movie...Hopefully, a classic.

 

I found someone who makes me better...She pushes me to be better...She pushes me harder in life.

 

I have so many goals in life and to have another person rooting for me...makes life 10 times better.

 

Hopefully, this will be my forever...but only time will tell.

 

I've learned that I tend to control everything in my life...I don't want to control everything. I want God to lead and I follow...I want to try new things and not be afraid of the consequences..I want to live life FREE...and to be FREE...Free to make mistakes, free to love, free to be me...and free to do me.

 

As a Taurus,  I always tend to worry...Just because we are so concerned with our financial well-being and being stable.

 

I have to learn how to relax and enjoy life...and now I have someone to enjoy life with.

 

We already have planned my 1st cruise to Bahamas...and if you know me then you know I have always stated that I will never get on a boat, lol.

 

I really believe that God brought her to me, simply so that I can learn how to live outside the "box"

 

I feel inspired...so expect more blogs...Lol.

 

Love

Facing Fears

Facing Fears

Since my last break up, I have been dodging relationships like hell, lol.

Dating and talking to women, but avoiding the whole relationship talk...

Trying not to fall in love with anyone...

Neglecting others when I feel that I am developing true feelings for anyone...

Having women fall in love with me, while I hold back...

All because of fear...I fear of having another failed relationship...I really want my next relationship to be my forever that leads to marriage and building a stable family.

I really believe that God brings people in your life...So since my break up, I learned many valuable lessons in life.

I have learned that fear cheats you...it causes you to miss out on the most important things in life...I learned that it is okay to love again and that love itself is a risk...

I have learned that the past is simply that, the past...I look forward to seeing what stepping out of my comfort zone looks like...

I have been blessed to meet some many great women in life...Women who have shown me what love can look like...shown me that I am worthy of love....shown me a sample of unconditional love from someone other than God, family and friends.

I hope to forever open my heart without fear and to love like no other...I want to embrace others and show them that not all people are bad people.

I want to let my fear go...so stay with me on this journey :)